A Gift

Lately I have been walking around in a fog.  Instead of resisting it I am finding myself embracing it in a totally new way.  I have started to accept that my consciousness is shifting, further and further outside of the day to day life of being a human being on the planet Earth.  I look around at all commotion with a sort of vague memory of what it used to feel like to be "normal".  I don't know really know what that means though, "normal".  It is just a sense that part of me isn't really in my body any more and I find myself wandering around as if half asleep.  I often can't resist the fixed stare, especially when I am around large groups of people.  I tune myself out so that I don't have engage with anyone, because the thought of it terrifies me.  People terrify me.

The other night I was sitting in a cafe, staring off into space, when a middle aged man with a "Further" shirt waved his hand in front of my face to get my attention.  He didn't have anything to say, but just wanted to break my thought pattern.  He then got up and walked over to me and handed me a small double pointed quartz crystal.  He said he had a bunch of them and had gotten a few "wrapped" to wear as jewelry.  I accepted his gift gratefully and left the cafe.

I couldn't help but wonder why he chose to give the crystal to me.  He obviously felt some need to pull me back from my daydream, back to the present reality.  I looked up the meaning of a quartz crystal and read:

"This stone amplifies prayers, wishes and positive visualizations. Keeps you in touch with your spiritual side, and reminds you that you  are a spiritual being, having a human experience. All spiritual pursuits can be stimulated and amplified using this stone's energy. It helps you to be receptive to higher guidance."

And so I heartily accept this gift from a stranger and continue to hope against hope that 

even if life never makes sense again, it is not a complete waste of my time.  

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